My Broken Heart & Recovery
Sep.15.2017
As the summer air passed away, fall is coming which brings a bit coolness. Fall is always thought as a depressing season which indicates the same meaning to me. I am sitting at the table remembering the passed day when I was so childish. Meantime, my mind is so calm just like a peaceful lake letting the memory reappear.
That day, I firstly focused on that girl. THe appearance was not as beautiful as i had expected, but that voice and her minor behavior attracted me a lot. Then I found her a girl not only with charming voice but also cute language. Regardless of being a bit stupid when she was solving math problems, she is really an agressive person with a wide knowledge of the history, cultures of China. She loves ancient things and reads a lot of literary books while I focus on computer books. That girl, left me a deep impression.
I can hardly remember when I start to be favor in her. An invisible power drove me mad little by litle. For other people, she is just a representativee of English subject or an ordianry girl. But for me, she was the goddess of my entire world. Every time chatting with her online made me pleased and once I heard her calling, m heart beats fast. Another day I asked my foreign teacher how t o find a girl friend and then I started to greet her online by saying ‘Good morning’ or ‘Good night’ or by asking ‘What are you doing right now’ After these too much distrbance, she got tired of this. Then one day finally she asked impatiently why I was alwasys disturbing her and whether I like her….
That day, after my confession, my only feedback from that girl was refusal. Then my heart was broken, I felt my whole worlld collapsed. The coming duration was that she never gave me any response and I could hardly look at her eye directly.’ Am I a weak man? Should I be timid?’ I asked myself while tears dropping out of my eyes. Then I never type anything to her to wait for time too heal….
At present, I have to thank God that our relationship is getting normal and I can ordinarily help her in math. These days, I sometimes miss her smile, her cute voice. It is just like a summer day’s dream. that i used to love her. No matter if she will be the one of my life, I will bless her, for she was the one who I have been busily seeking for, and just like an angel in the heaven. I have no idea if she would fit me well, so just let her be the summer day’s dream. So face the truth as I remind myself to do. I hope that one day these will be one force which binds my other part and me together, bless us and bring us happiness forever.
A raw apple must be less sweet than a ripe one of course, is it the same to find a girl friend. My love must be immature. So let me experience more after entering the university, encounter with more people and find my other part.